Spirit BoxX Written by Ash Wednesday Hi SB it's me again Just sitting in the dark Listening to my comrades The alive, the dead, and the pretend People who act like my friends Throwing shade on all my successes Again and again But I know that you know Getting tips on my spirit box Synchronicity and gut feelings I am raw dogging this And you try to check out devoid of all feelings Hey it's great that you potay that you're doing well Everyone thinks it's fake as hell Lets settle this finally this time around Please know that I know, cause I know you well It's not that I am jealous just continue to be concerned And I think we're both similar at least from what I can tell. My intuition is pretty spot on with this you see The spirit boxes have been going off Riddled with voices alive and somewhere in-between Approved appericians only a few can see People see what they want you to see Posted abnoxiously for all to see Evaiding the obvious is what I can gather Desperate and dizzy around and around ( This cycle is fleeting) Here is the one
Everyone can see Running around ruining things Empty promises, that they'll call dreams Just little snippets here and there On the spirit box They're pretty chatty on that thing The dead love to talk A.W
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Sage 🌿 Written by Ash Wednesday I am not as unhinged as I could be and I want everyone to be grateful for that I could stand to turn it up a little I am not sure what its looking like but My body is not a temple it is a mid western dive bar. where the Hendrix at? And there has got to be something About bisexuals just not sitting so straight I burn sage wands And pick the nicest days to rot Inside of me the bridges are being burned I am done with all the wondering When is it going to be my turn Human things agitate me all of a sudden like dealing with my ceiling fan the air is drying everything up and killing my plants. It's definitely isn't my negligence I am just about beyond repairing And incapable of relaxing You can just forget about letting go I never let you get to know The real me in return While you upchucked all your insecurities I neatly laid them out You know you can open up to me
Again whenever your unbalanced side is out A side salad nothing special A side of parsley laid out and forgotten A.W. Informal Meeting Written by Ash Wednesday Don't ask me where I am going I am going fuckin insane Lobotomizing licorice Rotting my teeth and my brain Lost in translation Deep in some code Something to listen to Something nostalgic and old Before all the crazy Lots of swearing sweating and basements I would be happy to help Run things more effectively But it's not the same And nobody's talking Separate depressions Lives always growing In different directions I wish I could stop this You're welcome to have at it But I'll question your logic You couldn't code me Even if you knew me Everything there ever was I'll keep changing my coding Forever expanding
You like that shit don't you God I bet you're lonely Lost in the chat group Forever alone Talking to nobody I would give you another chance But can we even get past a glance Successful separately disastrous together same song different lyrics We're going nowhere The EP was cool, the live set was better I am going to remember those nights That you set me up for failure forward Forever unbothered I won't let you take my favorite weather Ya Dig Written by Ash Wednesday You can knock back jack But have to water down your cranberry juice Lead me on, steal my time And never ever return my Tupperware I hate to say it But some of you will not be Transfered over to my next season Calling in my worth, you will not ruin the autumn I am in automatic mode Ready to block and transpire Into the ethos balancing the cold The pushover people pleaser it's all very old And odd that you would think I haven't changed in all these years My dear I am sorry you were so heartless But it's time you see the problem wasn't her or me. You were the one that chose to dig and go take I hope the next one doesn't fall for the same mistakes You'll have to really up your game Or find someone the same A sad thing indeed these seasons of change But it's getting colder out And you'll both be come knocking at my door But when I open it willingly you'll see me and my New friends and family And they're not easily swayed They have my best interest This soul family doesn't take long To go off and call you out on your mistreatment And bullshit. I am saving your reputation by not telling my side of the story you see how I don't say anything about us very demure, I am not demanding of your time.
So cutesy. And look at you repeating and representing my philosophies and her treating them like it's brand new gospel. I am fucking loving it t go off "King". Go all the way the frick off. Got Forgotten Written by Ash Wednesday Took the knife out of my back Then started cutting ties with it I must have forgotten to mention I am a little bit of a weapons expert We were lonely and horny And happen to have chemistry I just have forgotten to mention I would skip this subject daily Habitually seeking refuge in my element I could sink into the water forever I maybe have forgotten to mention You're going to get absolutely lost in the depths of me Mentally seeking clarity I do this for the hell of it Disregarded all boundaries we love to make fun of it I must have forgotten to mention that All you ever see is the surface stares I won't have any of it This shifty behaviour If I wanted to deal with this shit I would have stopped going to therapy And with every tired tide that keeps Pulling on the moon I guess in all that time I forgot to mention to you I am not who you think Or remember I am not the person you imagine I am No what it's or remembers I am actually pretty shadowy And your friend they just get me That tasty little taste of chaos That is the kinda of me that is easily lost. A.W.
Burnt Out & Soup Brain Written by Ash Wednesday 5 day weeks but I worked 7 shifts Every fuckin morning I just want to quit And hide in the fuckin woods Oh God I wish I financially could Stretched so thin My brain is straight soup Not cognitive without coffee Cocking a fuckin attitude Burnt through my mental health Scorched and tortured so unwell Would burn this place and work shirt to the ground 5 day weeks but I worked 7 shifts Every fuckin morning I just want to quit And hide in the fuckin woods All the rave all the flames Engulfed in kerosene That would be good for my brain Railing caffeine another early morning The world isn't even awake But they all need coffee Missing moments passing by This latte tastes salty lady Today I am a toast savant On my autopilot bull shit Trippy tippy in my hand I am numb number 1 man Early mornings late night
This place would collapse But there are like 5 people keeping it alive God forbid I need two days off in a row Apparently they have my replacement I just have to train them first. Hell bent over to get ahead These days are getting worse and worse A.W. The Millennial Kennel Written by Ash Wednesday Concrete Commissioned Communistic Constructed Dead inside striking sterile "upgrades" Cheap fascaded decor The Millennial Kennel You too can own A dormitory for adults You can now rent to loan The Millennial Kennel Can be yours today All you have to do Is sacrifice all that space For a compact dream Sterilized like an office The Millennial Kennel A more luxurious coffin To hide yourself And disconnect from the world The Millennial Kennel with second colors Bold and blocky, these structures are absurd And ever all presence is daughting With built up way too high it's a struggle to see the skyline And I can't recognize neighborhoods anymore They all have the same fucking door And the people behind them I can't believe them They have lost all humanity the things we believe in The Millennial Kennel
Fit for something Like a generation that is used to Being left alone and forever numbing Grass is Wack Written by Ash Wednesday I think people forget that I was raised in a house of wolves Waking up with claw marks on my chest I am so used to being betrayed Skeptical doesn't even begin to defy it You thought the grass was greener But your a lazy lover and you hate to mow Left you to your own devices In hopes that you would grow But I think we left things stagent for too long
The grass is growing, and getting tall Now you're broke and I am to traumatized To see where things would even go. Oh look at you Here you are Alone and ready To use me again Like from the start From the beginning To the very end Fucked with my head My heart And would never hold my hand Fuck what you say From the very time you start Moving your lips I've tuned out your song It takes courage I guess Where was that before? Foxy Waffles Written by Ash Wednesday I am good love go disappoint somebody else Not today or ten from now Could cause me to spiral And breakdown And leaving me alone for all this long I'll be sure to get you hooked But my silence is an answer And least you forget At least your friends can be discreet You're just playing yourself waffles And making a sticky mess And I asked you once again friend to a friend are you loyal like a dog ready to settle in or are you sly like my local fox? Stumbling onto my property drunk and horny Where is your mind these days What substances are you still abusing Have you gotten your shit together yet Or are you just pretending You'll have to be better And I've seen you've grown a bit You've gotten your bed frame finally Don't think I don't see the irony A.W.
Pathetic Pathogens; Trying To Take Up Real Estate, In This Economy? Written by Ash Wednesday I struggle with our dynamic Who am I to you Who are you to me Who were we to one another In that moment In that breathy sentence Is it aligned and balanced Absolutely not Are we still going at one another Oh absolutely just subtly I know deep down it's not I know you do this with other But it's comfortable to live in delicious delusion Missing you is not okay it's underwhelming unfair and one sided and it's pathetic you make me feel worthless and pathetic. Nothing will and would change
It would all be the same Except for a little bit more lying Crafted and directed my way Finally free and then you come crawling back I hope you found what you needed It only took half a decade for you to see that And I got a good laugh for about a week But waffles this is something you're not Going to be interested in me The situation is more sticky than that Than could ever be. You're welcome to try like the other But I don't think you'll stick I found a healthier substitute The kind that would make you quit And quiet and go into yourself A good look in the mirror And a ton of therapy and self help And I wouldn't even entertain Some of you fucking degenerates again An eye for an eye I am passed that petty shit Please both of you get your mind right instead. A.W. |
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