Written by Ash Wednesday
I hope all the distance and distractions are working and worth it
But I am tired of you chewing with your mouth open and looking idiotic.
And just so you are aware I love to babysit and watch you play games with yourself.
I'll camp out
Even though I've never called a day in my life.
It's not a stake out
I have the highest respects for cows.
Are these bread crumbs your dropping for me periodically gluten free ?
I'll just smoke and smile to myself and look the other way sipping my tea.
I wanted a real challenge but this shit is so cute
And it's a stacking tower mess.
You should have been there
I would have said
You were going to be a little late
I didn't think you meant almost two years.
I am so sorry you keep saying
I feel like I'm not going to be able to believe that
Not even in this instance
You'll keep your distance
And continue to lie to whomever will believe you that week.
And I will laugh and smile because I know what makes you weak.
Skin feels like it's on fucking fire
My stomach is a knotted mess
Too many late nights in the parking lot
Of the farm that is hardly fresh.
There was a time where you could talk to me sober
How many times have we both sworn it's over
I thought about just holding your hand all October
I just wish you were actually singularity sober.
Spent too much on addictions
And third party situations
All the caffeine and nicotine
And too much time in front of your phone screen
And still you have a hold on me
Who gave you that audacity
If I have you an inch you would
max out my mental capacity
I just want to know where you find the audacity?
To play and juggle with people's hearts
Eventually everything will falter and
What you're doing isn't alchemy it's just nasty
I hope all these distractions were worth it
To me your apologies are worthless.
I just want you to know this.
If I wanted to I could destroy you _ _ _ _ _.