Ash Wednesday: Thankful.

Written By: Ash Catcher 

With the most overlooked holiday finally past us, I can not be more thankful for everything that has happened this year. How I decided to celebrate Thanksgiving was the most needed getaway in uh well this year I guess? All I wanted to do was take a bath, and yeah I am sure that is kinda a dumb thing to want, but as a water sign your girl thrives in the water. Good luck getting me out of it. I decided a staycation was very much needed.  I went to Lancaster for about 24 hrs, there were no televisions, or screens in my room, I had limited use of my cellphone. I just wanted to get back to center and appreciate time with myself, and my partner. I cannot even begin to describe how good of an idea that was— but I am gonna do it anyway because then we wouldn’t have a meaty Ash Wednesday Entry. ​

This year taught me to be thankful from everything that has happened to snagging a really cool house, going further with more responsibility with my job, a thriving side business, If you don't know I am an avid pet sitter, and dog walker- shit is lucrative, and of course I am thankful for myself, my partner, and our two cats.  I think life was at one time moving way too fast, well now it is moving even faster, we are almost in December already and I look back at my timeline every so often and I just see this beautiful person who literally couldn’t care less what people think of her. The whole point of writing is you keep doing it, and doing it, and doing it, until something sticks. I felt that way about art and as much as I want to paint again, it really hasn’t felt like something I need to do, I journal, and doodle, and I will draw still life in the cafe, or of Banner but I really do not feel like I need to express myself with such an intensity that I get when I am painting. ​

I am thankful for all the people I have met,  I am thankful for all the friends, and connections I have, quite a lot! There is something super comforting about living somewhere where everyone knows you. I really feel like it is surreal sometimes, but lately I have really enjoyed it. I am also very thankful for everyone who left me before I really had a real sense of myself.  Thank you for treating me like I was nothing so  that I can now find someone to see me for something. Thank you for leaving, for making way for the people to stay. I am thankful to the people who kept me in their back pocket, and as an option knowing that my empathetic nature and integrity would never be question, thank you for being such amazing liars, terrible people, and thank you to all the trash that speak about me behind my back, hey at least you’re talking about me. I hope one day you tell it to my face, and I’ll probably smile back at you and ask you “Who are you, again?”

Finally:    I am thankful for the abundance I have gained this year: the insight, and the intuition that helps guide me through pretty much everything I manifest. I mean it is really simple, when you stop being so 3D about everything.

​-I'll Catch Ya Next Week