Ash Wednesday! Consensual Choking

Consensual Choking
Written by Ash Wednesday

I cut all of my plastic six-pack rings at work and home, because I believe in consensual choking. 
It takes me everything and anything not to grab their neck when our lips are touching.
They are not you. 
They won't play with me like you do. 
The conversations are a bit stale and sometimes boring. 
I am checking in and out more and more of reality. 
You're like a cavity I just can't stop tounging. 
Too much and rich for me 
But you are a broken shell of a human being. 

​I wish you spoiled me with loyalty
Instead of whatever the fuck game you were attempting at playing.
I just want someone to play chess with. 
I think you would have been the perfect opponent. 
But then again I am the queen of playing myself.

​ Trapped in a room with you was like being alone with a shattered mirror. Just look at yourself. 
We are both Fragile dealing with the repercussions of your 7 years of bad luck. We are both afraid. We are both scared. We are both broken. And abused. And absolutely now I am 100% sure you and I have the same mentality. Baby we are boarding on the lines of reality- so I'll ask you one last time fuckin stop spying on me from the comforts of your castle and fucking play with me one more time. 

I should strip you of me- but we're both masochistic.
Not of your dignity you have done that long ago 
But of the scales  that you had to weigh decisions and yourself. 

​I should strip you like I have for the past few life times
We just meet in different skin suits 
But you seem so familiar because I've known you thought the centuries even if it was just in passing or a few hours. 

I believe in consensual choking
And I think I carry some weight more than you would like to admit.
I am an awful person apparently the absolute worst 
Yet I am your go to drug of course. 

You started drinking enough for the both of us I didn't even have to bring a bottle to my lips. 
You told me you would never allow that of me. It least I think that's what you said to me it was hard to make out with that lisp. 

I could use a little consensual choking

A.W.