Ash Wednesday! 9

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By Ash Catcher 
Photo Credit: Harley Maile, Photodelphia

It is all a numbers game, or so I am told. 
7 is supposed to be lucky, and it shows. 
But for me it has been the number nine. 
I have no idea how it started, but it happens all the time. 

In ’99 I saw Phantom Menace. 
Oh good god another Star Wars reference, lord help us. 
In 09’ I saw that movie nine. 
It was pretty good, and got me interested in graphic design. 

That was also the year I saw AFI with you 
I was freshly out of my upmtenth 302. 
Fall was tough that year, and winter also
That was it, one and done, gone and blocked now, built up a wall. 

It all comes back to that number nine. 
I have lost track of how many times you have used “ I am sorry, lets try again” 
Iets chalk it up to 9 give or take. 
Each time I let you back in my life it has always been a mistake. 

But damn can you blame me, you raised an optimistic. 
But buy ’19 I know better now, fuck you, fuck off- I am done with this. 
I will never let someone run me like I let the 9 of you. 
I am done with that submissive shit, this lesson was long overdue. 

-Ash 

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